Spirituality vs Rituals

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Jewish High holidays are getting to the end this week.  This year we celebrated the holidays in the real Orthodox community and I would say it was the most ritualistic holiday season for our family ever.  However, I can’t say that it was the most spiritual time for me.  I don’t know why, but unlike other years I had more spiritual feelings and thoughts during this time than this year even though we did more rituals.  I don’t know if anyone understands me what I am talking about and that is OK.

I guess the rituals still don’t make much sense to me yet and they somehow are not connected with my spiritual thoughts, there is a disconnect.