ahka | I hate wasting time... (Reply)

I hate wasting time and that is exactly what I am doing right now!

Nothing I look at sticks as something interesting or something that I get involved in. I jump from one article to another, from one book to another, from one website to another, from one e-mail to another and nothing keeps me interested enough to feel satisfied.

At home, I don’t have time for anything interesting but kitchen, house cleaning, laundry and kids. So, to avoid some of the housework, I choose to stay away with the kids by hanging out at my parents’ house, go to the library, to the park or to the stores. My house is a mess and I gave up on the idea of cleaning it because as soon as I clean up Michelle would throw some food, some toys, some drinks all over. Cleaning and washing dishes has become a non-stop chore.

Also, I am so irritated with all of the junk mail and Michael’s school papers that we keep stacking on our kitchen island. I try to sort it out on daily basis but some days if I skip it just adds up and irritates me more and more. I hate when there is a visual chaos in my house.

I even made a list of things that I need to do in general to see if there is something that I can do now while my clients don’t show up. There is always paperwork. I am actually pretty good with getting my paperwork pile to a minimum. Paperwork is the least likable part of my work. I do it only if I am in the mood or really have to do it.

I am getting frustrated with my clients that I just spoke yesterday and today they already forgot about their appointment. I am booked two weeks ahead and many clients don’t show up, even when I double schedule. I really need to find and work on some project. I need ideas and then I will choose what I would do…